This has become one of my favorite movies. To be honest, I prefer it over the book. Elizabeth Gilbert is a fantastic author, but Julia Roberts is my favorite actress! Sometimes I watch this movie when I need to find balance in my life. The lessons she teaches throughout her experiences, travelling to distant places and finding herself, are remarkable. This message to all of you is inspired from an email I sent to my sister earlier today. I spoke to Caitie last night, and I was having a difficult time missing my nephews, my dog, my siblings and my Mom and Dad. She helped me refocus, not just on the reasons for why I moved to Europe for the summer (and why I am always travelling and moving away) but also why I am travelling to distant places inside of my heart right now, during this time of my life. I kept thinking that it was the need for change- but sometimes internal discoveries have nothing to do with changing and they have everything to do with getting to know yourself as you already are. My diagnosis shook my foundation. Everything I thought I knew about myself changed. As I’ve mentioned before, I knew myself as a runner. When I stopped running, I was lost. I had worked hard to lose a lot of weight in college (I had been overweight my entire life, and it was the only time I had reached a normal weight for my height), and I ended up gaining it all back. I had already gone through one transformation, and found great happiness and then when I was diagnosed with T1- I felt like I lost it all.
Training is influencing me in a profound way. It means that I will have the opportunity to rediscover my strength, my ability to commit whole-heartedly to something, and my capacity to overcome feelings of doubt. These are all parts of myself that are already there, waiting to be rediscovered. This journey has a lot to do with getting to know myself as I already am.
Here is my favorite quote from the movie:
“You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert
Today I booked my ticket to Ireland and re-watched Eat, Pray, Love because I realized that I am better, when all those things are in- line. (Eating healthy that is!) “I crossed the street to walk in the sunshine.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert